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Jan. 13 Tursday morning
I am glad to talk about the speech about motivation last night. Speaker(I cannot remember his name) tend to give us a funny speech with a hook about the weather. This is interesting, because even if it is snowing outside the room, inside are full with a group of people. With the first sight, I did not find any empty seat. Then I dicide to walk down the hall anyway. There is a empty seat in the first line, so I had a seat. His speech is not so funny to me but I still recorded it. I think this is not a good speech.

Jan. 14 Attempting to take a history class
I still have one class left to choose. It is supposed to be a good thing for me. However it becomes a nightmare. Morning in a week have already had a full time schedule. Afternoon is blank. I checked my dars and tried from Music to psychology, but all of them are full and the instructor would not like to give me a pink sheet. Damn! Finally the idea comes from my friends guide me to take the history class. So today I go to have a try. Things always happen in the way you cannot forcast. What the instructor do in the beginning really scared me. He checked the name of the students one by one. World have been collapsing in that moment. I felt nausea and run out of the room immediatly. The instruckor must be an evil.

Jan. 15 This is a saturday as usual
I dont have a good mood today. I wake up late in the morning then took a shower. It feels better. My head is filled with the melody of the song in the yesterday bible class. It is not a bad song but the content is strange because the elements of religion. The China bible study group intent to sing a song in the spring festival to praise the lord. It may be cool if I am the one who has a seat in a hundred group. But instead I was chosen to stand in front of them. I am scared again.

Jan. 16 All day in the church
I think I am totally nut to spend nearly a whole day in the church. It is interesting at first when an American friend Zac take me and my friends to their Christmas party. Even now it is still interesting to listen the pastor to ministry and the old John to talk with me about the god. The most uncomfortable thing is hanging out with the Chinese guys. They seems to be poisioned so deeply into their mind. I does not obersve any bad thing caused by this, but I think the sick behavior finnally will lead to the horrible result. At least I felt so bad today.

Jan. 19 Rainy banana day
Couldy day it is today. During this day, I would like to find some songs that I used to hear unconsciously but leave a deep impression in my mind. Great, I find it, today. Piece of lyrics is singing like this "New york, concrete jungle where dreams are made of, New york there is nothing you can't do~" Wonderful voice go deeply in your mind when you are upset or depressed. Strength in the melody will charge you and inspire you, so I highly recommand this song. It is the song in the movie "sex and city 2". Enjoy.

Jan. 21 Happy to see you again, Friday.
When dropping my bag on the floor, I realize the beginning of a weekend always be that much attracted. Because all of suddent you got a lot time to manage what to do. Feeling of being able to manage your time is good. You can choose to sleep, or play as much as you want and then go to sleep. This part of everyone's life makes their differences, and lead somebody to achieve and somebody elso to fail. Take a good use of those weekends is a wisdom choice.

Jan. 22 Being a Dota man
Everybody should know game is not just a game for a teenage age boy. My parents never told me to stop playing games. Even if they asked me to hold the game when I am facing something kind of important, I will say playing help me keep my mind running. If you want to have fun in your playing, you will need winning. And if you want to win in a battle, you need to think and practice. That is why Dota is the most fitable game for boys like me to play. No matter which sides you belong, the defence or the scourge. Same theory exists in playing like what adults do in their daily working. Saving power, and team work are more easy to practice in this game.

Jan. 23 how do you feel?
When I take my watch and go outside, there is voice rising in my head that I am going to have a test tomorrow. I am about to have a seat in a big room and confront a page with 50 questions to answer. Fortunately, I still have the choice of how bad feeling I will have after my test. Hurry up. I gonna finish the guideline and run over it again and again. This week ends in there. Bye.

Jan. 27
The grade of the test is announced this night. I am sure that won't satisfy me because the test felt so terrible. When I first took the course, I know it is a fault. I think I am not ready to take this kind of course. The other problem is the papper work of it. I need pratice and learn. I think I should drop it.

Jan. 28
I make a phone call to my mom, today. She is like who she is like when she does not mad at me. It is the time for spring festival. She is busy in the house, buying stuff and housekeeping. This year is special because of me. First year the whole family celebrate the spring festival without me. Mom gona miss me.

JAN. 29
I happen to see the moive comments in the internet. The comments of the movie. My interest has been arised, when the comments said the movie is a irony work of Jang Wen. He is special and he has a gift but he intends to be an exception of the sociaty. In the movie, he said that he aims to make a money while he was stand. This is the straight translation, not a good one. It is hard for other country people to understand, but this is owesome by the meaning of it.

Jan. 30
I think it will be a lot of fun to write a journal in Chinese. I don't know why I count the day I have been in America. And it is already 6 months. First I cannot communicate and cannot take the nomal acadamic courses. Then I study and I feel better to talk and almost jump out of the jail. Then I take the nomal courses, I start to feel uncomfortable again. The quarter is really suck, it should be longer for me. damn.

Feb. 13
Today is Sunday. I went to a huge Church with Zac who is my frist American friend. His friends make a band and play songs before they do the worship thing in the church. The music is spiritual and powerful. It has a very good melody for people to follow. Then the pastor come in front and began the pray. Today's topic is Valentine's day. He point it is the time for people to heal their relationships with other. What is the most impressive statement is when both of lovers have confliction, it is not who is right matters, and it is who make the first move.

Feb. 14
At the beginning, the morning always be the reason for the bad mood. I dont know if Mike will cancel the morning class. If so, the day will look more better. It is rainning outside, but I cant find my umbralla anywhere. the great thing happened today is that today is Valentine's day. When I walked around the park behind the library, I can see lovers hanging out their. The pastor giver the idea that this is the day to have relationship healed. Who I need to heal the relationship with.

Feb. 15
I used to play Dota till the middle of night which totally exhausted me to sleep the next day time. We students need entertainment to rejoice ourselves. Somedody may love to dance. Somebody may love to sing. For me I need Dota. Actually, I didnt play it very long time. However, I play it better and better during this time.

Feb. 16
I talked about the game yesterday. The most important part is to make a good management of the time. It is apparently not a good idea to do that again. Then, back to today, I need to eat my parents' cooking.

Mar.1
Today is the first day in March. The end of the quarter is approaching. Those tests finally become burdens again. I may want to find out how many tests I have through my life and how I handle with them. Actually, they know much more about me than my mom. They know what I know and how I do them. So they are sure to accompany with me in the rest of my life.Year.

Mar.2
I like the Jing's Chinese heros legend so much that I watch it again. Gongfu is the most fantasy skill in the world. It makes people strong and the great life katha is included in it. We chineses all get familiar with those series of story. I believe there is big idea that we can dig out from them. So if you can read Chinese, give you a chance to touch it. You will love it.

Mar.3
I have a lab of the EE class today, The lab was close to the end, while the final program is processing. It is soldering circuit board which is a simple circuitry. In order to finish that, we need to work on a board individually with a tool box and a soldering iron. Those accessory parts need to be attached on a board by the soldering iron.

Mar.4
The morning is the need for refreshing myself. I always fail to get up in the morning when I was in the high school. Now so do the college time. I think all colleges in the universe should canceal their 8 classes in the morning. Then the new generation will grow better than ever before. So I do.

Mar.5
I cant find out how many same journals I have already written. The quarter is about finishing, but I still need to write this. I never write a completed essay during the entire quarter. I doubt that if I cant pass the composition test as I want. I see the words on the cash"In god we trust", so I want to say "In god we past".